Thank you for sharing and I just want to Echo some of what you're saying in my own personal experience with depressive episodes, which I've had as a Mainstay of sorts for most of my life and it can be very terrifying. And certainly disorienting say in the middle of a depressive episode to be aware that you are looking at the world through a distorted. Lens, but to have no confidence that you can correct that lends, it can get very terrifying because you feel like you're the prism through which you are looking at reality is broken and you're aware. There's a problem, but you can't look through that broken prism, to fix the broken prism or or so, you might believe and it can be extremely disorienting and sometimes destabilizing for sure.
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